Tuesday, December 30, 2008

New Years Already??

What a whirlwind! Ok not really. The past two weeks have been filled with oversleeping, catching on my favorite tv shows since I don't have cable at home, and overeating. mysteriously I didn't actually gain any weight. Hmmm. I even went to the gym with Semi-Desperate Housewife (aka my older sister) this morning. Yay us. I just can't believe that it's almost 2009! This year has flown by. So many changes have happened in this year. I graduated college, got my first "big girl" job, moved 12 hours away from everyone and everthing I knew, got a new bf, lost a bf, now I kinda have him back.... had a cancer scare, whew! Crazy year. Here's hoping 2009 is full of good things for everyone!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Seven Pounds

I just got back from watching the new movie, Seven Pounds. I, and the 3 other girls with me, cried pretty much the entire time. It was one of the saddest/best movies I have ever seen. All I can say is.....go see it. You won't regret it. Just don't go see it alone because you'll need someone to cry with and talk to on the ride home. (and bring tissues.)

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


Does anyone else get the winter blues? I do. Especially after having to duct tape my windows shut and then nail blankets around them to keep cold air from blowing in my house. And tomorrow I have 15 hours in the car along staring out at the bleak gray sky with snow falling down. It will be a great time for reflection and self awareness. Yeah ok. I actually meditated and did yoga at midnight on Saturday. I love my gym. It has this lovely little room that you can close yourself off in and turn out the lights and watch these workout videos. And the yoga one was really really good. I was so relaxed and calm afterwards. Maybe I'll do it again today. To get out of my little slump. Oh well. I'll be home soon and have two weeks to relax with the family. Hopefully that does the trick!

Thursday, December 11, 2008


Holy crap that hurt!!!!! 4 shots in my whooha which hurt like hell. Then the lovely rubber coated speculum-to keep me from getting electrocuted of course-was too big for my apparently small whooha so that was extremely unpleasant. I also did not get any meds!!! not fair at all. So I took a bunch of IB Profen and curled up on the couch with taco bell and episodes of friends. Awesome day.

Today's the day

Well in two hours I go under the knife. Yeehaw. I am so excited can you tell? I hope I get some good pain meds out of this but I'm sure with my luck they'll tell me to take Tylenol.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Winter Wonderland

Merry Christmas! Well, almost anyway. I'm being festive and spending the day baking Christmas cookies. It's snowing outside and since there's nothing else to do..... Let's hope I don't eat them all myself!

On the man front....I'll update you on my date with Mike. It was snowing that night as well, and it took me almost an hour to get there instead of the usual 15 minutes. By the time I got there we both decided to skip driving in the snow to get to dinner. Instead we opted for ordering in Italian and watching movies. It was all very romantic with the snow coming down cozied up to the dvd player with our dinner. We didn't really talk about anything we just cuddled and kissed a bit. It was nice. It felt familiar and safe. I still don't know what this means for us, but I might go over there tonight and talk about it.

Is it the holidays that makes everyone so nostalgic? It makes us miss old friends and lovers and makes us long for someone to love us. I don't want to jump back into a relationship with someone that I still have feelings for if it's just because we're both lonely. So, with the advice of my sales trainer in my company who is also a cool as hell woman that I adore. I'm going to list the pro's and con's of Mike. And you get to read them! Aren't you lucky : )

1. smart
2. driven
3. doesn't act like a typical rich snob that feel entitled to everything
4. loves kids and family
5. funny
6. same interests (i.e. art, music, stand up comedy, good food, hanging out at home)
7. isn't pretentious
8. wants to be successful to provide a good life for his future family
9. wants to adopt and helps kids that don't have anyone to take care of them
10. gives a lot to charity
11. strong
12. man's man (i.e. loves sports, poker, etc.)
13. doesn't drink so that he can be a good influence on his little brother
14. my parents adore him
15. handsome
16. great kisser ; )
17. dresses well
18. has same goals
19. loves animals
20. always willing to help other people
(many more that I could add but I won't bore you)

1. holds grudges
2. has a temper (which I do as well so I can't really fault him for a flaw that I also have)
3. never had a good female figure in his life to show him what he wants in a woman
4. never had a good marriage example to show him how to make a solid lasting marriage
5. father and brother both drug addicts, step-mom is a gold digger that he detests (although he can't help how his family is so it's not really a fault of his, just something that worries me about his view of family)
6. feels the need to constantly prove himself to his father which means working 90 hours a week (Don't want him to be the kind of guy that neglects his family in order to get ahead in the workplace.)
7. wasn't raised in church and doesn't share all of my beliefs in regards to Christianity, although he does want his kids raised in church which is good but still.....
8. not good at showing his emotions ( Example: We dated for 9 months and I told him I loved him 4 months in, he never said it back so I stopped saying it. Then the night we broke up he told me that he had been in love with me since the day we met in South Beach but he didn't want to say it because he wasn't ready to take it to that level. So he was in love with me for like 6 months and still couldn't say it even when I said it to him.)

Hmmm.....well the pro's outweigh the con's but at the same time they should be view on a weighted scale because some mean more than others. Well, I just hope that I get to see him tonight and figure out what he's thinking about all of this. Hope you are all enjoying your weekend!! Merry Christmas : )

Thursday, December 4, 2008

goodbye weston

Dear Weston,

Thanks for telling me that you've chosen to go back to her and that I am cut out of your life. Thanks for being childish and blocking me on myspace-are we still in high school???? Thanks for stringing me along and pretending that you were thinking about our future when really I was just your back-up plan. Most of all, thanks for proving to me that karma is a bitch. I broke your heart and now you broke mine. Good luck with her and and at least be honest with her about me because if you don't you'll be building a relationship based on dishonesty.


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Funny Stuff For You Moms

Since I am completely in love with Chelsea Handler ( in a completely non-sexual way ) I came across these "webisodes" called "In The Motherhood" It's something Suave and Sprint did as an online tv show thing. Anyways, they're pretty funny and I'm sure you mothers out there would also find it funny. Enjoy!

I rock

Well, after gaining the obligatory 5 Thanksgiving pounds I decided I need a plan! Also because I have a date with none other than my former bf Millionaire on Friday. (I need to stop calling him that but since that is what I referred to him as before...well you know. His name is Mike btw. ) Anyways, in honor of my 4 day crash diet I got up at 6am and went to the gym, worked out and went tanning and am even writing a nice little blog before I run off to my meeting. AND I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON!!! For those of you that know me well you will know that I hate getting up in the morning and usually work out at midnight because I'm more awake then. But I've heard morning workouts give you way more energy during the day and help kickstart your metabolism whereas a midnight workout just keeps you awake all night and more tired the next day.

Back to the date with Mike. So Mike, whom I have not spoken to in 3 months since we broke up called me on Thanksgiving to see if I wanted to have dinner this week and try to be friends. Interesting. I smell a plot to get me back lol.
Now many of you (aka all 3 of you) may be wondering why I'm going on a date with Mike when I'm "waiting for Weston". Well I'll tell you! Weston called on Thanksgiving also. To inform me that he will call me after the NEW YEAR and that he wasn't sure now if he wanted to get back together and I shouldn't wait for him. WTF So, when Mike asked me to dinner as friends I felt that it was perfectly acceptable. Which it is.I also picked this awesome restaurant. We're having a late dinner on Friday. Hmm smells like a date, looks like a date, and he called to talk for 45 min last night. I'm thinking Michael has more on his mind than just friends.

On the health front I have decided to get the surgery done. Technically it's called a surgery but it's actually a 15 min procedure done in the doctor's office that only takes a day or so to recover from. Well I should say recover as in be ready to work etc. My poor little cervix will be recovering for 4 weeks though. Anyhoo, hope you all had a great Thanksgiving! Here comes Christmas!