God I hate my life tonight

Do you ever have those days that make you just want to pack everything into your car and get the hell outta dodge? Today was one of those days. So far this week I have lost my job, lost a large amount of sleep, come to the realization that I'm falling for the guy that's engaged, learned that he is also falling for me but is afraid to break his fiance's heart by leaving her, and also come to realize that I'm still in love with Mr. Big even though I try so hard not to think about him.

Both roomates are currently getting some from their respective boyfriends while I lay in my room trying to sleep and trying not to call Mr. Big. So I figured I would blog to take my mind off it.

Yeah, lost the job. The crazy bosses finally made the work environment just a little too crazy for my taste. The wife hid the trucks so our crew can't go out and do their job, she also stole $14,000 from the company. So her husband fired her (which he can't really do since they both own the business) he also fired his own daughter for taking the wife's side. He then had police brought in to escort them off the premises and brought in his drug dealing whore to be the new secretary. So me and my engaged co-worker hugged, said we would miss each other and proceeded to quit.

We then had a two hour conversation about how much we want to be able to see each other but we know that we would end up having an affair. He then told me he knows he needs to leave her but its just really hard after four years. We had lunch the next day didn't even talk about "us" which was nice. I'm going to miss him a lot. I realize he will never leave her, they never do. But we never did anything physical which I am so glad for! At least we never cheated-maybe emotionally I guess we did though.

After two glasses of wine I am slightly tipsy and wanting so badly to call Mr. Big but I know I can't. The thing is, I know he still loves me but he is so freaking stubborn. He really is just like Mr. Big on Sex and the City. Maybe 6 years from now he and I will make it work. Yeah....ok.

Goodnight everyone....hope you all have a better week than me.

videos

FYI the third video down is the only good one, I cant quite figure out how to pick and choose which videos to put on here so the other three are stuck for now. Although the first one is funny if any of you have a crazy mother-in-law

correction...in the last post i put that the not-so-hot men aren't arrogant, but i meant that they are. : )

It's not how it seems on Sex and the City

Well, my first blog. I was not a fan of blogs until I read my sister's semidesparatehousewife@blogspot.com which made me laugh so loud my boss came in and got pissed because I wasn't working-whoops! I am not half the writer my sister is, however I thought it would be fun to make a blog about being a single girl in contrast to her blog about being a wife and mother.

At the moment I am sitting at work (marketing intern)....fun times! I cannot wait to graduate and get the hell out of this town and get a real job. My bosses are going through a divorce and at the moment are once again standing outside my office having a screaming match. I love my job.

So, being a single girl is interesting to say the least. When I say it's not how it seems on Sex and the City, I mean it. I love Sex and the City.....sadly I have every episode on dvd as well as the trivia game. On the show, the girls have fabulous jobs, fabulous friends, rent controlled apartments, and gorgeous men around every corner. Now as a senior in college the jobs are hardly fabulous, but hopefully next year that will change. I do have fabulous friends though, can't complain there. Rent, not so cheap but it's worth it to live where I live.

Men deserve a paragraph of their own. The city in which I live actually made it on the list of the 100 worst cities in America for singles. Fantastic. You would think a college town would be swarming with hot guys but noooooo. That would be too easy. Now there are a few hot guys in town, but most are arrogant pigs. The worst part is - even the not-so-hot guys aren't arrogant pigs!! It's like they think that since men are so hard to find, we girls should be content with what we get. It's not wonder I tried Eharmony in December. Yes ladies, at 21 years old I tried internet dating. Now, not tooting my own horn, just being honest, but I am pretty good looking. I may not be the hottest thing on earth but I have no trouble finding men. And I like to think of myself as a good catch, so why do I always seem to find either A. emotionally troubled men or B. cocky assholes. hmmmmmmm........interesting.

Must go for now, the bosses are threatening to fire everyone. YAY!